Monday, June 6, 2011

Magical Moments Missed

I like many females, love the happy ending. If a movie or a book isn't going to happen in a way that pleases me with all the ends tied and the characters in a better place than when they started, then I don't want to know about it. So nothing chokes my chicken more than those moments in TV or in movies where they are clearly setting up characters to finally get together or get everything they wanted, only have something go spectacularly to pieces. This usually happens right when something amazing is just about to fall right into place...and yet it all comes crashing down. Not quite sure what I mean? Let me give you some examples....


Friday Night Lights (and while I realize I am only in season two this one is still just chapping my ass) - Lyla and Riggins. Good god lord all mighty and his baseball bat why must these two keep missing their mark? Like seriously??? SERIOUSLY?? (yes I quoted Greys...and yes by the end of this you all will see just how TV obsessed I have been over the years...the reality is that I don't watch TV during the school year and wait for seasons to come out to see them all)...Regardless!! Riggins while listening to Lyla's Christian Talk show finally gets it! He finally realizes he's in love with her, goes running to be her to fall at her knees and confess his undying love to her...and BOOM. Moment missed and opportunity flushed out with the holy water. Riggins will now be likely to revert into his old ways and continue to drink away his future and his liver health...and Lyla will continue to preach the bible as she hides behind it to cover her butt during her confused teen years.....arrglag'asd'gasjdglkajdg'ld

NEXT: Ugly Betty. Nothing annoys me more than Ugly Betty and the THREE missed connections that fell flat in this show. While I have hopes that at some point Riggin's and Lyla will get their heads out of their butts, Ugly Betty is over and I am ANNOYED still at the idea of those jerk producers screwing with the Betty/Matt, Henry/Geo and most importantly the BETTY/HENRY. WTF? They finally look like they are going to get together and then what? OH YA Henry's cheating ho-bag of a girl friend shows up saying she's prego!! WTF?? Its not bad enough that they screwed with Henry and Betty just before trying to go to Wicked (my worlds most favorite musical which is saying something because I have seen A LOT) but then to have Charlie get prego? When in fact she is cheating? Then its Henry's?? WTF? And then Matt leaving for Africa on a total whim? ..... as I type now the steam is slowly starting to trickle out of my ears.

Gilmore Girls. Oh holy geeze nothing kills me more than the whole Rory/Tristan thing going straight to pot. Tristan kisses her at that party, and she bolts. Yes I get it...that rejection sucked, but the next episode he totally could have redeemed himself by saying "HEY I LIKE YOU" and then who knows? He could have gone after her?? WHY THE HELL NOT! He could have kissed her that night at the play before he left...HE COULD HAVE MADE MANY MANY MOVES...but no! He chickens out!....siiigh.

And Finally (not the last missed connection but the last for this evening) Greys Anatomy. Lexie and Mark. Mark the eternal player, the man-whore. Lexie, little Grey. Why the hell can't these two seem to get it together? Mark has his daughter and ignores Lexie, missed connection. Lexie 'falls' for Avery and Mark "lets her go"....what the hell is that? What kind of crap is that? They are just making up all kinds of excuses for these two to get together and yet proceed to tease us with their longing looks, and their flirty banter and cute moments, and then BAMO never going to happen.

I understand that these tactics are how the attract the viewer in. This is what keeps the viewers coming back every week, pining over every new episode and flocking to spoiler sites to figure out whats going on before anyone else. I get that. But why can't they ever throw the viewers a bone? Why must I sit in agony and pain to finally get the happy ending? Ugh I really need to get out more....

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Finding new addictions

Whenever I find myself confused about life and the direction it will take, or you know all my relationships are falling to pit, I somehow find myself looking for ways to keep myself otherwise engaged. In others words, instead of trying to find a new job, or figure out what to do between school and my extra-cirriculars (I have to decide between moving or staying here for school, if I decide to go back at all, and I volunteer a lot at competitions as an official so I have to weigh that in too)....I have decided to take on other things to keep my mind off it all.

My newest obsessions have manifested this go round as TV shows. Now I don't usually watch a lot of TV. I refuse to schedule my week around watching a TV show at a particular time or rushing home to see it, or even joining any sort of "pool" for reality TV. I would rather be out...living in reality (I know the irony huh?). I'm single and about to be jobless...TV is a cheap and easy alternative!

Enter Friday Night Lights....Or should I say cute "high school kids" (puuulllleeease...all these guys are in their 20's and everyone knows it....therefore it is not pervy....) running around all dealing with issues far bigger than themselves, and far bigger than anything I ever had to deal with in high school. Racism? You got it! Steroids? Yuppers!! Teen pre-marital sex in the Texas bible belt? Ooooo you know it! And of course to top it all off in the first episode the most promising player on the team gets clobbered and ends up in a wheel chair! (then subsequently sues the school because even though it was his fault...americans will sue anyone for anything...and get away with it). But I digress.

I don't know how I managed to arrive so late to the part on this show...Its only in its 5th season and here I am watching season one! But thats ok! I may have been late to the party but  man is there a lot of dancing yet to be had! Regardless of the fact that I don't know a single thing about football, I feel this show covers a lot in only 45 minutes a pop, the plot keeps me entertained, and I revel in the fact that by watching these boys run around....that I'm at least not thinking about my exes! (ex friends or otherwise)

Another strange new addiction? Storage wars! If you have never heard of this show, I am here to enlighten you! The premise? When people abandon their storage lockers, the storage facility actions them off for a profit. Treasure hunters bid on the lockers and then try to flog the crap inside, and sometimes find these really valuable items that others have left behind. The items that have been left behind in the lockers are crazy!! $17 000 in jewlery!? 1000 worth of vintage Levis jeans? Cars? Who abandons these things? Over 20 000 worth of kitchen equipment? Its nutty! The exciting part of the show is the bidding that buyers must endure to actually get their hands on the storage units themselves. 19 episodes and you too will feel like you can make a ton of cash from other peoples crap!

So hopefully I have enlightened you on the ways of amazingly addictive tv! Today Storage wars tomorrow Extreme Couponing (Something I might have to do should I not figure out my job situation or school situation...but then again I could just watch the show and forget all about it too...hmm)

Thursday, June 2, 2011

stumbling behind or pulling ahead?

I have a theory. Life is like a teeter-totter. Imagine if you will a teeter-totter sitting at perfect balance...then something comes along and plops down on one end...and suddenly you're sinking down desperately trying to get back to balance...or force it down to get ahead...My theory is that in general we like balance. We want to be sitting balanced, but life has a funny way of throwing things at us sway us up and down. Failures, decisions and set backs weigh us down, where successes and achievements pull us back up, unless they bring us too far up, something else will have to happen to bring us down. We are constantly being manuvered up and down by the events that take place in our lives, and it seems to me mostly that we are unable to control a lot of them. Things just come up. Sure we might bring some of it on ourselves.....but I know deep down somewhere in our souls that we want balance.

So what has made me come to such a theory on life? Well mine got a wee bit shaken up. Again. In fact this whole year has been a bit of a rocking horse. I've had failed relationships, and amazing adventures abroad. I've had tough decisions, bad jobs and made mistakes, that have turned into amazing opportunities, and met new people who have all changed the way I see the world. I've had family illness, and family bonding. I've had all these things happen and just when I thought I was finally getting back to normal...I find out that my job hat was supposed to pan out...has not and I have to make a decision about school...and it means facing a lot of my problems with my first degree and making them right.

The worst thing is that because of all of my failed relationships (friends and significant people of interest) I'm starting to feel like I'm all alone. In fact I can't ever remember a time I felt this alone. I've always been one to have lots of plans, to always be out...and this week I've been home in bed early every night. With decisions about school weighing on my mind, and family illness taking its toll, being lonely is wearing me a bit thin. When you are so used to having someone there all the time that listens...and suddenly they are gone....its incredibly hard to remember how you coped before.

But through all of these things that seem to be constantly changing (like my ruddy job status) I can't help but feel that everything really will work out. I will get back to being balanced. I'm starting to wonder if the shedding of dysfunctional relationships really just put me up, not down, if the choices about further education are really just bringing me down back to earth, and my job not panning out sinking me forcing me to push myself back off the ground. What if all the bad really is just all happening now so that something amazing can happen and get me back to normal? Maybe being alone, and lonely is making me realize that the relationships I was in before weren't really giving me what I needed?

What if there is this big pay off in my future and all I really need to do is remember that my feet can take me anywhere and all I have to do is have faith, bend my knees, and push off.

So here is to faith! I may be the most agnostic person in the world, but I know that some how, some way (and no this isn't going to turn into some horrible Nickelback song) the universe is looking out for me.....and maybe having a good chuckle at the same time. But it will all work out....or I'll just keep living my life. Either way tomorrow I will get up and greet the day, and do my best to get back to balanced :)